๐Ÿ” Thursdayย 

We got up at 6 am had breakfast and left the house at 8. We traveled for about 2 hours to get to Laust’s school in Malmรถ. His school is really impressive! They have an indoor skatepark and it’s gigantic! ๐Ÿ˜ 

After he finished up at school we went for a walk and ended up going to the cafรจ where we had our first date and our very first coffee together. We went to that cafรจ on our wedding day too. Right after the ceremony. We also hung a lock with our names on it.


And almost a year later, IT’S STILL THERE!!! ๐Ÿ˜โค๏ธ

We got coffe and I had tons of emails to send, so we stayed for about an hour at Le crossiant, which is a French cafรจ that had us reminiscing about our good times in France ๐Ÿ‡ซ๐Ÿ‡ท. 

We then went back and continued our walk, and decided to visit my old place. I used to live in a flat that was above a cafรจ where I worked a few years ago. I got to show and tell Laust about the place. The good and the bad. The place kinda looked the same, but at the same time it didn’t. They have done major changes, expanded the kitchen and built another room on the second floor. I miss living there. And I’m so very grateful for having had the opportunity to be surrounded by the people who run it. And they’re one of the few people I can say thank you to. It’s thanks to them and others that I am where I am today. 

After saying hi to a few people, and getting shocked over the fact that so many have moved..  we walked around so more, and thn than I finally went and saw a doctor. 

I found out that I’m alright, but for more precise tests I need to go to Bjรคrred and get a check up. But I suffer from anxiety and stress. 

We then decided to get the train back to Copenhagen and grab something to eat. We barely ate anything other than breakfast and a vegetarian lunch that day.. which was basically a curry bean sandwich.. I’m not that into beans ๐Ÿค“

Laust wanted to go to yoburger but I was too hungry to walk all the way there, so we went to Tgi Fridays and got burgers. DELICIOUS BURGERS ๐Ÿ˜

We started by getting appetisers, I got mozzarella sticks and Laust got chicken strips. The burger I got was the jack Daniels chicken sandwich, which isn’t really a burger burger ๐Ÿ” and Laust pulled meat burger which had a big chunk of homemade delicious fried onions ๐Ÿ” 


I got myself a glass of lemonade ๐Ÿ‹ everything about this meal was perfect!!

 

Definitely one of the best burgers I’ve had. 

The best burger place in order of tastiness: 

  1. Five guys 
  2. O’Learys 
  3. Tgi Fridays 


The best part about the meal and the entire day, is this guy here ๐Ÿ’– The purpose of the spoil yourself parade yesterday, was mostly because Laust got accepted to the school he applied for, and I’M SO PROUD OF HIM!! He’s done an amazing job!! And he’s earned it! ๐Ÿ˜ We also got ourself an apartment!!! Thanks to Laust’s sister Lise!! ๐Ÿ˜ She posted a story on her instagram and got a heaps of messages, and one of those messages had the perfect apartment for us!! ๐Ÿ˜ It all seems unreal! I still can’t believe it! But everything is falling into place!!! ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ 

xx 

๐Ÿ” Thursdayย 

One of many.ย 

This might be a bit too personal.. but something inside of me is screaming for me to share this.. And honestly.. not talking about things like that.. makes people think it’s not real. Not common. But depression is real. It happens to a lot of people. And there is nothing wrong with anyone who suffers. 

They are not crazy

I don’t remember much of that particular day.. but I know it was in the 9th grade.. I might have been 14 1/2 at the time.. not that sure.. it was a really difficult time for me back then.. I don’t really know why.. it wasn’t just being bullied.. or being left out.. or alone.. I thought I was fine.. I was seeing someone..  or many.. so called therapists,physiologists, “adults”  did the whole talk about what’s wrong, get told why things are the way they are.. and leave with a smile pretending everything is alright now that I let everything out, “I feel lighter” “heavy weight has been taken off my shoulders”

But not many know this.. barely anyone to be honest.. the one I told.. didn’t seem to care.. even when I showed her the cuts on my arms.. I remember we were in a small computer room at school.. I was wearing a knitted navy blue sweater.. that made me really itchy.. and the more I itched the more I bled, and even when I told her that hey I tried to kill myself a few days ago. All she could say was why – we didn’t speak much after that. 

It all started with me skipping school that day. That place was hell for me. Bjรคrrhovskolan. But I didn’t always let it show.. no one knew.. although I wasn’t that discreet when it came to skipping classes and my grades.. but nobody cared.. teachers treated me as the bum they thought I was.. 

I skipped that day.. my mum got mad.. but she still had to go to work.. my dad was working in Stockholm.. and he wasn’t coming home this weekend.. and my sister was at school.. it was her first year at Katedralskolan.. so it was the perfect time..

I raided the medicine cabinet.. I took every Alvedon, ipren and painkiller I could find.. I had atleast 30-50 pills.. I sat in bed.. sorting them.. size by size.. kind by kind.. I poured myself a big glas of water.. made sure the tap was running for a really long time.. so it would be cold cold 

I started taking them one by one.. I didn’t feel anything.. so I went on two by two.. till there were none.. I remember feeling dizzy afterwards and then passing out.. my stomach hurt a lot when I later on woke up.. I don’t remember much of what happened.. everything was blurry, I don’t know if I passed out for hours or minutes.. I couldn’t move once I was fully awake.. I couldn’t speak.. my head hurt my stomach hurt.. I had a few messages from my mum on my phone.. asking if I feel better.. I panicked on the inside.. I called my sister saying hey I tried to die and now I’m sick.. I don’t think she understood me.. I didn’t understand myself at the point.. I panicked some more and called a suicide hotline for help.. they kept asking for my name and address so I hung up right away..

I started messaging my sister begging her to come home.. she refused because school was super important back then.. (not any different now) she called Mum.. and told her.. 

Mum came home.. found me in a pile of my own vomit in bed.. she was furious.. 

They emptied the house of every pill that’s ever been there.. And my dad found out of course.. 
And all I could think in that moment was.. that I’m that big of a failure that I failed my own suicide.. 
Life didn’t get any better after that.. but here I am. Alive and well. And I found and lost happiness, love, friends, moneyat least a million times. And it doesn’t bother me. I’m happy to be here. 

And I’m happy that you are too. 

Life isn’t worth fighting against. So live. Experience. Love. Laugh. Cry. SCREAM THE FUCK OUT. 

Honestly. If knew that my life would look the way it does now back then.. well I’d never attempt suicide.. I’d never do anything.. other than be thankful. Because right now.. life is beyond everything I’ve ever expected. 


It does get better.


And I am a living proof of it. 



One of many.ย 

Long dayโœŒ๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ˜


Well earned after a very long and exhausting day at college ๐Ÿ˜ฆ

Started the day off by trying out the new makeup I received yesterday, and it’s amazing!! ๐Ÿ˜ I tried the mario palette and the kylie lip kit!! ๐Ÿ˜


The day obviously improved when I found out Sophie might join me in Portugal!!! YAY๐Ÿ˜ I won’t have to be all bored and alone for about 8-9 days!! ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ‘Œ๐Ÿผ


And as soon as I got home I had these two things waiting for me!!!!!

I made an order last night from missguided (as always!!) ๐Ÿ˜ I revived a pair of black jeans that FIT!!! I’ve always managed to order sizes that were too big :(( But now finally!!! Skinny jeans size UK 8 Eu (36) !!! SO HAPPY!! I’ve almost lost all the Christmas weight ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚ – And I also received an iPhone cover which is absolutely adorable!!!


I love it so much!!! ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜

And I got a singlet and a dress!! Which I’ll be wearing in Portugal on Saturday ๐Ÿ˜โ˜€๏ธ


Oh yea, and just an oyster perpetual treat ๐Ÿ˜ I’ve obviously set the time and date after I took the picture ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜ฉ and the only thing left is for me to go to the arcade and get it resized ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ‘Œ๐Ÿผ
xx

Long dayโœŒ๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ˜

On the bus ๐ŸšŒย 

I thought I’d update real quick before I get home, because I’m not sure if I’ll have enough energy to instagram and make a long enough post about this trip.

 So I thought I’d summarise it. The images below are taken with my phone, I won’t be able to access anything I’ve taken with my camera till very late tonight </3 


So I met up with my man ๐Ÿ’– and we decided to just grab food and spend the first night at the hotel just us two.. 


The view from one of the windows. We stayed at Hotel Victoria, on the sixth floor. It was incredibly cozy. Lovely hotel, amazing staff. And a very good area. Everything was open all hours of the day. 


The following day, we decided to do some exploring, the weather was awful! But it really didn’t stop us! Although one of my camera lenses is completely ruined now.. but hey it’s worth it!! Paris is worth it ๐Ÿ‡ซ๐Ÿ‡ท

We drank coffee ๐Ÿ˜โค๏ธ and walked about 15km all over town, we also travelled a lot by metro, it’s not as complicated as people think. We both thought it was way easier than Berlin ๐Ÿ˜ฑ


Afterwards we picked up pizza ๐Ÿ• and chicken nuggets and spent a few hours in, napping and eating, before heading out again later. 


I’m on my way back to Glasgow (home for now) and I should prioritise getting some work done.. but I’m for certain that I’ll be transferring all the pictures we took to my laptop and spamming instagram and probably the blog over the next couple of days. ๐Ÿ˜… 

xx 

On the bus ๐ŸšŒย 

Why won’t she introduce you to her parents?ย 

Now I know this is a strange topic.. but lately I’ve been hearing it from quite a lot of guys.. saying their girls aren’t introducing them to family members? Parents? Etc.. I’ve been hearing it for YEARS from several mates </3 

And none of them understand why! 

See the reasons to why many girls decide to not introduce you.. ever.. or maybe just not right now .. can simply be divided into 4 categories .. 

  1.  You’re a loser (you know it she knows it) 
  2. You’ve not proven to her that she matters.. 
  3. You’ve not made any plans for the future or even spoken about a future together 
  4. You’re still living as if you are a single guy… 

So for 1; you might not be a total loser.. but since we were living in caves, women have always been drawn to men that bring home the MEAT! Or a stone.. (whatever!!!) meaning.. she wants a man that can provide, that is progressing in life.. moving forward! Not stuck in the same spiral?? Yes failing is ok.. but laziness isn’t! Yes I’m all for woman and independence.. but our human instincts say otherwise when it comes to feelings.. every lady wants to be carried every now and then.. but Hun females can do what you do and do it better! And actually do way more.. so step up your game.. โœŒ๐Ÿผ
2: are you constantly speaking about what you and your friends do? Or did? Or going to do? Are you constantly asking others for their opinions but not her? Is she not being included? Are you always the one deciding on what to do? Do you ever ask her about her day? How shes feeling? Oh boy.. I can just go on.. it doesn’t take much to make anyone happy.. or to even make them smile.. making an effort doesn’t mean spending all your money or planing a crazy “spontaneous” thing.. from experience whenever there are big gestures.. there’s none of the smaller ones.. so stick to small gestures/efforts.. and big ones for major events.. and you’ll be fine ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿผ

3: if you’ve already planned your summer or Christmas or Easter or whatever and not suggested you do anything together or even asked her if she wanted to spend some of her holiday with you.. GAME OVER – no but seriously.. of course you don’t need to spend every second together.. but to give her the option of being able to come and join you for Christmas even if it’s for lunch or whatever.. including your lady in any future plans and actually following them would benefit you a lot! ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ good luck!! ๐Ÿ‘๐ŸผโœŒ๐Ÿผ
4: yes I know if the relationship hasn’t been defined it’s not really a relationship and you’re still “free” I get it.. but no.. there’s no such thing.. if you’re seeing someone regularly.. and you spend a lot of time together.. and it’s somehow moving forward.. you can’t just keep going out with your mates and getting shitfaced?? You can’t keep your tinder profile active when she’s living with you?? You can’t keep talking to the same girls that you yearned after when you were single?? And still try to see them and get some?? Where’s your logic?? You are wasting your girls time. And she knows it! So boys.. men don’t play games.. and if she’s not giving you what you want.. take a look at what you are giving her??  Probably not much! 
( I don’t mean to offend anyone.. but I’m sick and tired of boys complaining about females, grow up already, especially at my age and people older..  if you all keep playing games.. you’ll play yourself to the point where you are single and aloneโœŒ๐Ÿผ) 

Why won’t she introduce you to her parents?ย 

c’est la vieย 

I’ve been quite busy doing coursework and spending time with my dad since he’s here for a few days ๐Ÿ‡ฌ๐Ÿ‡ง  We’ve celebrated he’s birthday a week earlier and he’s helped me figure out my next destination! โœˆ๏ธ 

I’ve booked my next weekend off to Paris๐Ÿ‡ซ๐Ÿ‡ท !! I’m so exited! Me and Laust do this all the time, we meet up in different countries and do a lot of exploring! We’ll be staying at a hotel in town ๐Ÿ˜  I CANT WAIT! 

I honestly thought that I wouldn’t travel in March other than Copenhagen as always and since that doesn’t count I wouldn’t have much to write about.. but oh boy I couldn’t keep that promise to my dad or myself or Laust ๐Ÿ˜‚ 

So it’s almost time for me to start packing and maybe order new outfits??๐Ÿ˜ 

And yes I will most likely do every couple thing there is to do in the city of LOVE with my favourite Laust ๐Ÿ’–   

c’est la vieย 

He saw something good so he claimed it.ย 

I’d rather have roses on my table than dimonds on my neck.

There are clearly more pictures from our wedding day.. but those are the ones I always find myself looking at.

Everyone is shocked when they find out we’re married.. because of our age and circumstances. We got married when I was 18 and when he had just been 20 for about 2 months. It’s been more than seven months since.


No one ever asks me why I decided to marry so young. Everyone always asks Laust. It feels as if marriage is something all woman want at a very ย young age, and no one ever cares to ask them why no matter how old they are. It’s as if we are born to commit and men are just not tame, they are born to stray, and if they do decide to marry it’s a miracle. Well this is the cold hard sad truth. No one expects any man to marry. Men are known to always want someone new and to never “settle”. And yes that is true. Men tend to see and try everything before they decide this is what I want. And even then they stray every now and then.. or maybe just once and then they realise what they have..


In my case I was very “lucky”.. ย when I first met Laust I had made a deal with myself to just go with the flow, and not force anything and to completely be myself. And guess what?! Laust actually fell in love with me for who I am?!?!? I know I can’t believe that either.. everything happened so quickly after that. And every relationship has its problems. But we’ve managed to tough it out. We’ve learned that our love is rare. (We learned the hard way too) We both knew it when we met.. something about him makes me calm. And I know he’s my soulmate. And this isn’t just another thing a girl says. Because we’ve managed to actually have everything during such a short time! We dated, became a couple moved in together while still dating actually but deep down we never needed to define it, since he asked me to marry him only a few weeks after he asked if I was his girlfriend๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜ฉ๐Ÿ’–, then I moved to the UK to study while he’s still in Sweden, we managed to travel together and meet up in countries randomly, he’s my go to person when it comes to anything.. and he’s always by my side.

But we still do give each other a hard time. We push each other, we test boundaries, and yes it occasionally happens that we hurt each other. But we’ve also grown so much together! We’ve helped each other develop. Nothing and no one can ever hurt us as a couple or individuals. That’s how strong we’ve grown. We keep no secrets in our realastionship but we also believe in privacy. (But not always๐Ÿ˜‚)

He’s made me believe in love again. He’s made me believe in marriage when I’ve always been against it. He’s rare. He’s one of the “good guys”. Everyone makes mistakes. Boys make mistakes. But a real man owns up and changes.ย Because let me tell you, never stop believing, and don’t dive in with your everything for anyone. Always be yourself and go with the flow. Because when a guy sees how good you are. And how much of a better person you make him. He will claim you. Otherwise he’s just wasting his time and yours. Trust me.ย 

It’s not all about luck though, maybe we were lucky to meet each other and so were you when you met your other half, but it’s really more about how hard you have to work for it. No realationship is easy, it requires a lot of work, faith, hope, LOVE, HONESTY, TRUST, solid foundation of friendship (that is built overtime) lose one thing but have the others left then you can easily build it all back. But lose everything.. then you’re left in a hopeless mess.. And yes you can be best friends with your partner. What’s the point otherwise? You’re supposed to be able to have fun together, talk about everything, share all your secrets to one another, and trust them not to hurt you just as you trust your best friends and of course also being able to be romantic and cheesy together..๐Ÿ’•

So if anyone ever asks me why I married so young? I’ll give them the same answer as Laust : I found the one, why wait?ย :’) ย 
xx

He saw something good so he claimed it.ย