๐Ÿ” Thursdayย 

We got up at 6 am had breakfast and left the house at 8. We traveled for about 2 hours to get to Laust’s school in Malmรถ. His school is really impressive! They have an indoor skatepark and it’s gigantic! ๐Ÿ˜ 

After he finished up at school we went for a walk and ended up going to the cafรจ where we had our first date and our very first coffee together. We went to that cafรจ on our wedding day too. Right after the ceremony. We also hung a lock with our names on it.


And almost a year later, IT’S STILL THERE!!! ๐Ÿ˜โค๏ธ

We got coffe and I had tons of emails to send, so we stayed for about an hour at Le crossiant, which is a French cafรจ that had us reminiscing about our good times in France ๐Ÿ‡ซ๐Ÿ‡ท. 

We then went back and continued our walk, and decided to visit my old place. I used to live in a flat that was above a cafรจ where I worked a few years ago. I got to show and tell Laust about the place. The good and the bad. The place kinda looked the same, but at the same time it didn’t. They have done major changes, expanded the kitchen and built another room on the second floor. I miss living there. And I’m so very grateful for having had the opportunity to be surrounded by the people who run it. And they’re one of the few people I can say thank you to. It’s thanks to them and others that I am where I am today. 

After saying hi to a few people, and getting shocked over the fact that so many have moved..  we walked around so more, and thn than I finally went and saw a doctor. 

I found out that I’m alright, but for more precise tests I need to go to Bjรคrred and get a check up. But I suffer from anxiety and stress. 

We then decided to get the train back to Copenhagen and grab something to eat. We barely ate anything other than breakfast and a vegetarian lunch that day.. which was basically a curry bean sandwich.. I’m not that into beans ๐Ÿค“

Laust wanted to go to yoburger but I was too hungry to walk all the way there, so we went to Tgi Fridays and got burgers. DELICIOUS BURGERS ๐Ÿ˜

We started by getting appetisers, I got mozzarella sticks and Laust got chicken strips. The burger I got was the jack Daniels chicken sandwich, which isn’t really a burger burger ๐Ÿ” and Laust pulled meat burger which had a big chunk of homemade delicious fried onions ๐Ÿ” 


I got myself a glass of lemonade ๐Ÿ‹ everything about this meal was perfect!!

 

Definitely one of the best burgers I’ve had. 

The best burger place in order of tastiness: 

  1. Five guys 
  2. O’Learys 
  3. Tgi Fridays 


The best part about the meal and the entire day, is this guy here ๐Ÿ’– The purpose of the spoil yourself parade yesterday, was mostly because Laust got accepted to the school he applied for, and I’M SO PROUD OF HIM!! He’s done an amazing job!! And he’s earned it! ๐Ÿ˜ We also got ourself an apartment!!! Thanks to Laust’s sister Lise!! ๐Ÿ˜ She posted a story on her instagram and got a heaps of messages, and one of those messages had the perfect apartment for us!! ๐Ÿ˜ It all seems unreal! I still can’t believe it! But everything is falling into place!!! ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ 

xx 

๐Ÿ” Thursdayย 

One of many.ย 

This might be a bit too personal.. but something inside of me is screaming for me to share this.. And honestly.. not talking about things like that.. makes people think it’s not real. Not common. But depression is real. It happens to a lot of people. And there is nothing wrong with anyone who suffers. 

They are not crazy

I don’t remember much of that particular day.. but I know it was in the 9th grade.. I might have been 14 1/2 at the time.. not that sure.. it was a really difficult time for me back then.. I don’t really know why.. it wasn’t just being bullied.. or being left out.. or alone.. I thought I was fine.. I was seeing someone..  or many.. so called therapists,physiologists, “adults”  did the whole talk about what’s wrong, get told why things are the way they are.. and leave with a smile pretending everything is alright now that I let everything out, “I feel lighter” “heavy weight has been taken off my shoulders”

But not many know this.. barely anyone to be honest.. the one I told.. didn’t seem to care.. even when I showed her the cuts on my arms.. I remember we were in a small computer room at school.. I was wearing a knitted navy blue sweater.. that made me really itchy.. and the more I itched the more I bled, and even when I told her that hey I tried to kill myself a few days ago. All she could say was why – we didn’t speak much after that. 

It all started with me skipping school that day. That place was hell for me. Bjรคrrhovskolan. But I didn’t always let it show.. no one knew.. although I wasn’t that discreet when it came to skipping classes and my grades.. but nobody cared.. teachers treated me as the bum they thought I was.. 

I skipped that day.. my mum got mad.. but she still had to go to work.. my dad was working in Stockholm.. and he wasn’t coming home this weekend.. and my sister was at school.. it was her first year at Katedralskolan.. so it was the perfect time..

I raided the medicine cabinet.. I took every Alvedon, ipren and painkiller I could find.. I had atleast 30-50 pills.. I sat in bed.. sorting them.. size by size.. kind by kind.. I poured myself a big glas of water.. made sure the tap was running for a really long time.. so it would be cold cold 

I started taking them one by one.. I didn’t feel anything.. so I went on two by two.. till there were none.. I remember feeling dizzy afterwards and then passing out.. my stomach hurt a lot when I later on woke up.. I don’t remember much of what happened.. everything was blurry, I don’t know if I passed out for hours or minutes.. I couldn’t move once I was fully awake.. I couldn’t speak.. my head hurt my stomach hurt.. I had a few messages from my mum on my phone.. asking if I feel better.. I panicked on the inside.. I called my sister saying hey I tried to die and now I’m sick.. I don’t think she understood me.. I didn’t understand myself at the point.. I panicked some more and called a suicide hotline for help.. they kept asking for my name and address so I hung up right away..

I started messaging my sister begging her to come home.. she refused because school was super important back then.. (not any different now) she called Mum.. and told her.. 

Mum came home.. found me in a pile of my own vomit in bed.. she was furious.. 

They emptied the house of every pill that’s ever been there.. And my dad found out of course.. 
And all I could think in that moment was.. that I’m that big of a failure that I failed my own suicide.. 
Life didn’t get any better after that.. but here I am. Alive and well. And I found and lost happiness, love, friends, moneyat least a million times. And it doesn’t bother me. I’m happy to be here. 

And I’m happy that you are too. 

Life isn’t worth fighting against. So live. Experience. Love. Laugh. Cry. SCREAM THE FUCK OUT. 

Honestly. If knew that my life would look the way it does now back then.. well I’d never attempt suicide.. I’d never do anything.. other than be thankful. Because right now.. life is beyond everything I’ve ever expected. 


It does get better.


And I am a living proof of it. 



One of many.ย 

Long dayโœŒ๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ˜


Well earned after a very long and exhausting day at college ๐Ÿ˜ฆ

Started the day off by trying out the new makeup I received yesterday, and it’s amazing!! ๐Ÿ˜ I tried the mario palette and the kylie lip kit!! ๐Ÿ˜


The day obviously improved when I found out Sophie might join me in Portugal!!! YAY๐Ÿ˜ I won’t have to be all bored and alone for about 8-9 days!! ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ‘Œ๐Ÿผ


And as soon as I got home I had these two things waiting for me!!!!!

I made an order last night from missguided (as always!!) ๐Ÿ˜ I revived a pair of black jeans that FIT!!! I’ve always managed to order sizes that were too big :(( But now finally!!! Skinny jeans size UK 8 Eu (36) !!! SO HAPPY!! I’ve almost lost all the Christmas weight ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚ – And I also received an iPhone cover which is absolutely adorable!!!


I love it so much!!! ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜

And I got a singlet and a dress!! Which I’ll be wearing in Portugal on Saturday ๐Ÿ˜โ˜€๏ธ


Oh yea, and just an oyster perpetual treat ๐Ÿ˜ I’ve obviously set the time and date after I took the picture ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜ฉ and the only thing left is for me to go to the arcade and get it resized ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ‘Œ๐Ÿผ
xx

Long dayโœŒ๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ˜

Don’t!ย 

From my experience in travelling throughout my life.. being 19 ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ I’ve learnt a thing or two. Having been to about 16 countries so far I know it’s not a lot! But I have made a list for you guys of donts! I should be making one about does but to be honest this seems more fun and it’s more important to know what to avoid! I’ll make sure I make a list of does! As well. 

I won’t be going through every country or city, I’ll just bring up important things I’ve picked up along the way! 

  • When travelling always make sure you are not over packing! I tend to do that quite a lot and trust me! It’s no good! You won’t be able to shop and you’ll be carrying unnecessary items making your luggage heavier than it should be! 
  • I know that you can’t actually predict the weather so you might be worried about what to bring! But there’s this thing called weather apps and websites! But don’t look at just one, make sure you browse through atleast 2-3 to see what the weather is more likely to be!
  • Don’t listen to what anyone suggests is a ‘good‘ restaurant. Go out and explore! Not everyone shares the same taste! And if you always end up going to restaurants or diners or cafes that people suggest for you, you’ll be missing out on a bunch of other things! 
  • When in France! Don’t bother actually trying to speak to anyone in any other language then French! In Paris it’s more likely that they speak English, but forget about other parts such as Marseille! 
  • Don’t take out all of your money in cash! Most European countries use cards! And it’s a waste to take out all of it!  But if you’re in areas that aren’t city centre type you’ll need some cash! Because some places avoid cards for tax purposes. 
  • Don’t purchase souvenirs at airports or malls. They’re always more expensive and you can always get it cheaper from random souvenir shops located all over town. I often find the ones run by Asians the cheapest! 
  • Don’t expect people to be kind! I’ve had run ins with people in different areas that are sick and tired of tourists! And they actually say it! Although tourism is what is helping their country, that’s all they live off!
  • Don’t be rude! People are sometimes unpleasant but to make sure your journey doesn’t turn sour, try to keep up the good spirits and enjoy yourself! 
  • Don’t waste time on people who stop you to talk when you’re walking! Even if it’s only for a signature or if they want 1โ‚ฌ.  Most of them are frauds! And only want to see how much cash you have on to later jump you! 
  • Don’t neglect your bag! Even if you’re at a restaurant! Make sure all your things are visible to you! 
  • Don’t allow people to trick you into cutting queues for attractions etc. 

Hope this is helpful! I know it’s quite short! And there is so much more!! I’ll make sure I post more about travel later on๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ
xx 

Don’t!ย 

On the bus ๐ŸšŒย 

I thought I’d update real quick before I get home, because I’m not sure if I’ll have enough energy to instagram and make a long enough post about this trip.

 So I thought I’d summarise it. The images below are taken with my phone, I won’t be able to access anything I’ve taken with my camera till very late tonight </3 


So I met up with my man ๐Ÿ’– and we decided to just grab food and spend the first night at the hotel just us two.. 


The view from one of the windows. We stayed at Hotel Victoria, on the sixth floor. It was incredibly cozy. Lovely hotel, amazing staff. And a very good area. Everything was open all hours of the day. 


The following day, we decided to do some exploring, the weather was awful! But it really didn’t stop us! Although one of my camera lenses is completely ruined now.. but hey it’s worth it!! Paris is worth it ๐Ÿ‡ซ๐Ÿ‡ท

We drank coffee ๐Ÿ˜โค๏ธ and walked about 15km all over town, we also travelled a lot by metro, it’s not as complicated as people think. We both thought it was way easier than Berlin ๐Ÿ˜ฑ


Afterwards we picked up pizza ๐Ÿ• and chicken nuggets and spent a few hours in, napping and eating, before heading out again later. 


I’m on my way back to Glasgow (home for now) and I should prioritise getting some work done.. but I’m for certain that I’ll be transferring all the pictures we took to my laptop and spamming instagram and probably the blog over the next couple of days. ๐Ÿ˜… 

xx 

On the bus ๐ŸšŒย 

c’est la vieย 

I’ve been quite busy doing coursework and spending time with my dad since he’s here for a few days ๐Ÿ‡ฌ๐Ÿ‡ง  We’ve celebrated he’s birthday a week earlier and he’s helped me figure out my next destination! โœˆ๏ธ 

I’ve booked my next weekend off to Paris๐Ÿ‡ซ๐Ÿ‡ท !! I’m so exited! Me and Laust do this all the time, we meet up in different countries and do a lot of exploring! We’ll be staying at a hotel in town ๐Ÿ˜  I CANT WAIT! 

I honestly thought that I wouldn’t travel in March other than Copenhagen as always and since that doesn’t count I wouldn’t have much to write about.. but oh boy I couldn’t keep that promise to my dad or myself or Laust ๐Ÿ˜‚ 

So it’s almost time for me to start packing and maybe order new outfits??๐Ÿ˜ 

And yes I will most likely do every couple thing there is to do in the city of LOVE with my favourite Laust ๐Ÿ’–   

c’est la vieย 

Day 2 โœจ

Day 2 on the 30 day blog challenge! ๐Ÿ˜‹ 

I honestly don’t think that much of the future anymore, I was brought up to always think ahead.. but lately I’ve stopped doing that. Life’s too short and I don’t care to think about where I want to be.. I enjoy living in the moment although my mind does wonder off on its own every now and then.. 

Of course I have my dreams.. of owning my own place and creating a family,  having my dream job as an investment banker, or my other dream job as a stay at home mother.. or travelling the world endlessly.. never settling down anywhere and always being on the move and being free .. ๐Ÿ”ฑ 
But in 10 years.. I hope I’ll be happy. That’s all I really genuinely want to be in 10 years. Doesn’t really matter how,  where, with who or anything..  โœจ 

Day 2 โœจ